The Vehicle

Through this past year I have learned and experienced many ways that the brain and nervous system operate through frequency. I have also experienced directly how Love and devotion allow us to completely surrender to the Unknown, thus becoming an instrument of consciousness.

I have always been a Bhakti, and Love for my guru as God has been my vehicle. When I stopped watching Amma’s programs last January, I did it because the Heart’s devotion was wanting a shift- a huge one.

As I began exploring my new studies, I recognized immediately that Amma, my Beloved, was the Quantum Field. She is Parashakti- the primordial source. As I learned to become sensitive to different frequencies within the Field, I knew I was connecting to Her in a completely different way- in a scientific way. I, as Awareness, was the observer of all Her magnificence…a little at a time, and yet blown away each day!

Through this new way of being in the Amma Quantum, I learned how important it is for one’s Heart to be wide open. It is the Heart that knows- not the mind. The Heart knows things beyond language- beyond intellect. If the Heart remains dull and lifeless due to other pursuits, we can never access the deepest knowing of the Universe. It is the Heart that guides us into the mysteries of the Universe, and it is the Heart that attracts the mystical to us. The Heart takes us beyond the ego’s need for security and opinions, and it is the Heart that also directs the flow of life into the higher energy centers within the body.

Being in Love in the Quantum is not separate from the Quantum. Love unifies. It aligns. Love also removes any obstacle (false identity) that may be hiding. My Love for Amma, as the Quantum Field has become incredibly encouraging and inspiring. Through my devotion, I choose to keep aligning with the Field, rather than what the old programs may want or think. Even when those programs feel like life or death, my Heart knows to align with the Field, as the Unknown. This choosing again and again, year after year, decade after decade has opened this Heart to such a degree that it is no longer questionable. I trust my Heart’s knowing more than I trust anything in this world, because the Heart is not of this world. The Heart is not affected by this world- not the real Heart. The real Heart has the capacity to contain the Quantum. It is the Heart that is the magnet for the Quantum- and when it is pure, the Heart has mastery.

As my Heart keeps being activated in the Field, my Awareness is getting stronger- more precise. I know that many in the Advaita circles may argue with this, but this is my experience. Yes, Awareness is not subject to change, but I sense that it can become more “aware” and also more guided. It feels like my Heart is guiding Awareness, like they are somehow linked. When I’m in my resting state- which is being aware that I’m aware, it feels like the Heart is supporting it somehow. The resting state has become more of a default state now, rather than a place I need to become aware of. It just happens on its own, and the Heart contains it.

I am tuning into Amma’s programs again- just to see her and hear her. She is my Mother and my Self, and I love seeing her. The moment I tune in to her, Awareness becomes much more conscious, as the Heart is activated- just like it is in the Field, which further tells me that the Heart and Awareness are linked.

Even though I have never heard anyone speak about this connection, I will keep following the Heart. My journey is taking me beyond philosophy and teachings, because the Heart is leading. We all have this within us, but most people don’t give it any energy because it’s not in their teachings. But Amma has always said that devotion is best for the western mind. And devotion to the Unknown is a super-efficient way to get past the ego and all its attachments.