It's been awhile since I posted. During these past months there has been a very strong pull to go deep within. And there has been no movement to talk about it, or share teachings in a formal way. The sharing is happening now from a much deeper, more intimate place.
I just recently returned from a trip seeing Amma and family. I went to California, and then to New Mexico. And during this time my entire spiritual process was blown apart. And I was returned to my starting point.
You see, it all began with an intense love for God. That intense love fueled the fire to search for Divine Union with every ounce of my being. I gave up a future for "Joi", and instead surrendered my heart and soul to this Love. And that Love consumed me.
And now, more recently, I find myself once again in this place of intense Love. Only now, there isn't a seeker involved. There is only Divine Love, intensely. I cannot control this feeling, nor would I ever want to. And within this Love, there is the Infinite Reality seeing itself, feeling itself, loving itself, and longing to know itself deeper and deeper.
While I was in Amma's presence i gave myself over to this experience. I cannot know how this life needs to play out, nor what "enlightenment" should look like. I left behind all those non-dual ideas long ago. I now abide in absolute not-knowing. Down to my vulnerable core. This is where the most intimate dance with the Divine takes place. And I am going to dance. And I invite all who dare, to join me.