Covid-19 insight

I'm beginning to realize how careful we must be with each other in this time.

People are extremely sensitive, many without even realizing it. Many are contradictory and volatile. Many are still in denial. Many are very afraid.

What this virus is giving humanity is a direct insight into what loss of control feels like. To realize that we can't control something that we can't see, that we don't know if we carry it, or our friends carry it, because we can't get tested, is shaking up the illusion quite a bit. The illusion being, that we are in control.

Complete liberation is the freedom from that illusion. It is incredibly liberating, but the passage to realize the ultimate absence of control can be extremely challenging (to the one that thinks it knows how to be in control). It tears down all the strategies we have relied on to maintain that illusion. We are shifting from what we have relied on, to something we can't "do" in order to change a circumstance.

So, if we can recognize those that are in denial, or are angry, or are afraid, that they might be beginning to encounter the loss of those strategies. Some of them might be unconsciously getting in touch with what it would feel like to lose control, and maybe its just too much for them to handle, which is completely understandable. Because when control gets ripped away from us, there is nothing to handle (except in this case stay-at-home and wash your hands, and do your spiritual practices).

If we can understand what people are going through, and support them, rather than judge them for their denial, or their anger, we can have a great insight into  the evolution of humanity, as consciousness. And yet, we can also still hold each other accountable, as we all need to be held accountable. To see where we are coming from, in each and every encounter, will enable us to remain alert, and compassionate.

Keep going

It’s amazing how deep the pain Body, along with its associated patterns of thinking, goes- deep and persistent. Life comes by, and the Pain Body gets triggered, and the thinking ensues, and the relative reality that the thinking creates keeps resurrecting itself. This is what we are doing, folks. This is where the real spiritual warrior walks.

We have to go deep. Really deep. right into the heart of that Pain Body. To voluntarily encounter it, over and over again. As we do this, our awareness is getting stronger, more precise. What the Pain Body is doing to our Light should be a major concern as we see it over and over again.

And then we begin to see how much more space there is, where the Pain Body once was. The triggers become less predominant, its like their energy has been deflated. Maybe a strong one comes by once in a while, but its not the same as it was. We know we are on the right track.

And how does this Pain Body get resolved in our system? How do we stop believing in it? Its absolutely essential at a certain point in the game that we begin to come from our pure Being. The essence of who we are. The deepest part of ourselves. The inner spaciousness that is there within us when we get quiet and put our attention on it. The deeper we go in our own heart, the stronger this inner dimension becomes. It responds to our attentions.

The only obstacle to knowing who we are is that we are so habitualized in focusing on the external. We are either focusing on what we need to do, the problems in our lives, or the problems within our own self. The turn this attention into a place within us that is not a perception, but rather a sense of spaciousness, is a completely different way of perceiving. But this is what needs to happen. Its like doing a U-turn with our attention. And inward we go- not into some “thing”,- into an aliveness within us, a spaciousness that cannot be defined, grabbed onto or owned. Pure Being is beyond small self.

When we encounter our Pain Body, we are encountering it with a part of ourselves that is not the Pain Body. There is a space between the what sees, and the pain body. What sees is our inner essence, the Deeper dimension, one that does not lack or feel problematic. It may be quite subtle at first, maybe even just a small space between thoughts. But the more we can align with our Heart, the wider that space becomes.

The more we use what we are to heal ourselves, the stronger that identification becomes. We begin to know ourselves as that which heals, rather than that which needs healing. Its a profound path of compassions and devotion.

The Big Change

I know I’ve been kinda quiet this past summer. And I would love to share with you my newest engagements with myself.

This last year has been a hallmark year for surrender. Mostly during the spring months, I began to make an extremely obvious yet chliche observation. This observation took me by surprise because on some level I already knew this, and yet I hadn’t gotten it all the way THROUGH. This observation, made after quite a few circumstances/events presented themselves, was that, “we are not in control.”

Now, this may seem like a relatively simple thing to understand, yet, it’s amazing how we still operate in the world thinking we are in control. Like, all the time. So, during this past early part of the year, things kept happening- i.e. unexpected expenditures- that were completely designed to show my being that I am not in control of Life. EVER.

Now it didn’t take too long for me to get this, fortunately. I got it pretty fast after thousands of dollars kept slipping through my fingers. At first I could feel the same old contractions, but they were softer than my old fearful days. Something in me- namely, fear- had been reduced significantly. The contractions, however, told me that the fear was still there. And they also told me that some part of my being still thought it was in control. How interesting! The two go together!

So, after this great revelation, I began to really sense this new invitation to let go- all the way. To begin to see what/who/where I was relying on to support me in any way, shape or form. You would be amazed at how subtle this can get. And most of these places that I relied on had to do with this paradigm. This limited aspect of the relative world. Even though my heart, and mind KNOWS that the Totality is the responsible party in all things, there were still small holdings in my nervous system that didn’t know this. There were places within my Being that just didn’t trust Life all the way.

Good stuff! And truthfully, I’ve always been aware of this, yet, never in such a precise way. It was like I had finally arrived at a place where I could see that it was finally time to let go enough, so that the Totality could integrate those little places in my NS, so that Life could really live.

So, that’s what’s been happening in a nutshell. I haven’t been trying to make stuff happen. I haven’t been moved to keep this teaching platform up to support me. As a result I’ve been hiking, and meditating a lot. And consciously allowing the Totality to meet me in those little places in the NS. Its been powerful, and it has strengthened my devotion exponentially. I thought my devotion was strong before. Now I know its everything.