Real Inquiry

Many years ago, I had an interesting Darshan with Amma (one of many). She gave me my hug, and then pulled me up to face Her. With a questioning look, she said "I???" I got up and walked back to my seat with that question in my head..."I???" That was my initiation into inquiry. And even though serious inquiry wouldn't happen until many years later,  I had already asked myself the question. I had already felt into the "I."

  One of the most powerful ways to access potent inquiry is to be in the world, or in a relationship of some kind. Maybe even both. Because this sense of "I" arises so much when we are engaged with others, and with life in general. Spiritual Inquiry isn't using some technique to find a more comfortable experience, or to get rid of feelings of separation. It is to see "WHO" it is that needs these things. Because if we are using inquiry to get out of our experience, there is "someone" that is trying to get out.

I know, I know. You've heard it before. But have you ever really taken this seriously? I mean, have you every felt into the sense of "I?" Have you ever felt into what it is that is so afraid? What it is that needs to feel secure? What it is that feels separate? The person that demands to be heard? That needs to be right? What is that? Feeling separate, or afraid, or insecure isn't the problem here. These are just a few of infinite ways that ego disguises itself, yet they are also huge clues to where awareness is within the disguise. Our surface awareness will naturally go to the obvious stuff- the stuff that is easiest to perceive- the appearances. But real inquiry can penetrate much deeper than that...into the felt-sense of "I."  Our devotion to the Divine Field, which I speak of continuously,  is the means to expose this  felt-sense of "I." As we open to the Field, it is possible to become more aware of the "I."

The sense of "I" is completely allowed- there is nothing wrong with it- yet deep within it, consciousness is opening up to itself- to the Field. This is how consciousness begins to transcend the personal. So when we get really honest, and we are conscious of our personal needs, our blames, our fears- that defining boundary of the "me or I" gets very clear.  But now that we are open from inside, through our devotion to the Field, we can feel it strongly. And this is when we do inquiry. This is when we question this "I." This is how that felt sense of "I" softens and loosens.

  I find myself in interesting situations all the time. I seem to attract them. And everything that comes my way is another doorway into seeing the illusory of separation. And every time I investigate, there is only one thing that makes separation feel real. It is the density of "I." But when I share this sense with the Field, those boundaries of separation fade. The consciousness within the "I" sheds its cloak of the disguise of that moment. And that disguise is whatever I am believing in that moment.

  As Amma says..."I????" What is that? What is it really? If consciousness is everywhere...maybe we can begin looking in the least obvious places. 

Truth and Grace

Many people find themselves in a challenging cyclic struggle against themselves, even if they are not aware of it. I see it all the time. It is this struggle that keeps us from finding peace. It is this subtle self-judgement that keeps the knots tight within. And it doesn't need to be this way.

All we need to do is tell the truth. Do we know what this means? Telling the truth is a radical way to  see if we are against what we are experiencing; To see if we don't like ourselves, or our life. It is a way to see what we are resisting in our world- within ourselves. Telling the truth is an extremely vital aspect of our journey. We must strengthen our skills at telling the truth. We must find within ourselves the willingness to do so. Without telling the truth, we remain in an unconscious and tight way of experiencing Life. And the door for Grace cannot open.

Because my friends, it is the realm of Grace that we are opening up to. Grace is the magical component that changes everything. Telling the truth opens the doorway for Grace. And it doesn't matter what truth we are telling...as long as it is the truth. Grace is inherent within that willingness to tell the truth. It is there! And when we open the door for Grace, and grace comes in with the truth telling, we are relieved of the burden, It is no longer ours to bear. Grace has taken it on, and will change how we relate to the truth we are telling. I cannot tell you how...we must all find this capacity to attract Grace within our own truth telling.

Grace is powerful. And essential for all transformation.

Why waste anymore time trying to get the right experience. Just tell the truth...and watch the game change.

The Sacred Becomes Us

I don't know what it is about this time of the year, but I always sense a deep impulse to allow more light into my space. These longer dark nights invoke a silent invitation to allow the holy into our world. And if we can manage to remember our own innate sacred connection to the Divine, without losing ourselves in the hustle and bustle of the holidays, the light of the holy will reveal itself to us.
We always have a choice, and when we can slow down and allow the sacred to reveal itself to us, in this moment, we will naturally want to make more room for it. I know I do. And the more room we make for it, the more obvious the preciousness of the holy becomes. We are drawn into the holy by the illuminating qualities that are revealed to us. Light begets more light. And this light that recognizes this is our most fundamental essence. We are attracted to our own True Self. So when we light a candle, let us be bringing in the sacred of our own light. Watch and see how quickly the holy in your own being responds to being recognized. Let us take the time to do this each day, because it becomes us to do so.