Aloneness

The journey of embodiment has one requirement. And its not an easy one. The infinite reality that is wanting to occupy you wants you for itself. It doesn't want to share.

So if we are, in any way, thinking we need others to feel complete, we are not walking the path of Aloneness. In the moment that we are needing others, we are forgetting the One that is really here. And the One that is really here doesn't want to be forgotten. To completely open up ourselves and be available to the One that is here, we need to forget our needs from everyone and everything.

This can be difficult if we are thinking that we need other people to be happy. It doesn't necessarily mean that we become a hermit, or a recluse. Although we can find ourselves withdrawing from "the world" at times. Of course, we are still free to enjoy "others," because there are so many delightful and wonderful beings to enjoy! But it means that we are not using our relationship with them to fulfill some lack or insecurity in ourselves.  I find it means, for me, to be surrounded by people, but my relationship with them is purely unconditional. People are allowed to like me or not. Its not my business. And although I wish everyone happiness, and I care deeply for others, it's not important if they know this or not. By being detached, I am giving everyone their freedom to be strong and detached as well. I find I am more intrigued and inspired by people that come from this inner strength in themselves.

The journey of embodiment is a process requiring complete aloneness; complete detachment from needing others to feel better about ourselves. This allows us to turn completely to the One that is inhabiting our Being.

The world, as Maya, or Illusion, is full of distractions from the One. And needing "others" is the biggest, stickiest one for many of us.

Feel the One wanting you, all of you, deeper and deeper, so that one day, there will be no question of forgetting, ever, ever again.

Amma's Birthday

When I first met Amma, I knew she knew me. Like we were the most intimate of friends. She knew everything. So, there was nothing to hide. What a relief! And over the decades that intimacy has deepened, and become unlike anything I could have imagined.

Now, She is here. Always. I sometimes experience a bit of sadness every now and then, because being in Her physical presence is so much fun, and I don't get to see Her as much. But as soon as remembrance of Amma happens, the Amma presence that is in my heart responds. She IS my heart. She breathes me. She guides me. I feel Her moving my fingers as I type. She is waking up my very nervous system to Her, so that any separation dissolves. She guides me towards certain people, and sometimes She guides me away. I have faith in this guidance, because it has nothing to do with the mind. The guidance is very quiet. Mind is watching all this guidance taking place without mind's interference, and so mind can rest. Mind rests within the Amma heart.

In fact, there is no "me" being guided. There is only this Amma/Life, living itself. The Infinite Reality, pure consciousness, taking over occupancy of the physical form. Quite delightful for the form, since this is what it was designed for. Its a perfect fit. Pure Love inhabiting the Lover. And the eyes look down at these hands in awe of it all.

Happy Birthday to the One Reality that never was born, and will never, ever die.

Autumnal portal

I got some news today that my dear father was in an accident. He got pretty banged up and needs some surgery. He says he'll be OK.

I felt all shook up inside, the kind of shakiness that happens when you feel out of control. It was good to experience that feeling again, and to feel the invitation to lose control.

Coming into the new season there is a softening. The heart wants to explore its own tender Self. And if it wants to come in the form of shakiness, it can. As long as I feel connected, that is all that matters. Connected and Real. Returning to a place of extra-ordinariness. And every part of my experience is a way into the most alive and conscious existence that is possible, right now.