Love is my way

I’ve been around the block when it comes to spiritual communities, teachings and such. I’ve seen many different people get lost in many different ways. Some of them get discouraged after awhile and stop their journey. I get curious about this.

In the west, ever since I came back from India, the majority of spiritual folks are following a non-dual path. And if they are following this path, they are listening to teachings through the use of words and concepts. These words are describing something called Awakening, and so these people make their goal about Awakening. In this way, the teachings have become a “known.”

And what I have seen is that some people will have Awakenings, and they then think that this is what they were looking for and they want to make it last. This is all completely natural, as I’ve known this desire in myself at times. The problem with this is that it can become a personal desire, and a “known.” And when it isn’t fulfilled, there can be all kinds of challenges that arise. These challenges can be a doorway if we can find a skillful way to meet them. But most people have their goal set on feeling that Awakening high again, instead of looking at what is actually happening.

I have always had my devotion to the Divine to fall back on. Whenever I’ve hit a roadblock, I let go and She is right there waiting for me. I’ve hit a lot of roadblocks. They have all varied in severity, and to the degree of that severity is how my heart responds as intense Love. Challenges have been my open doorway to Love. The intense Love I feel is a result of many years of challenges and surrendering. And through these years, I have come to see that I am no longer looking for any state or awakening, for what I have surrendered to has revealed itself as what I am looking for.

Wherever we put our attention is where we put our energy. And when we put our attention on the Divine, as the Unknown, this is what becomes energized. We are feeding it with our attention. And when things are challenging, and we let go to the Unknown, that is sending a huge intention into the Field. We are not grasping for any knowns- any old ideas- we are completely giving all agency over to the Divine, as the Unknown. The energy of Love increases every time we do this because we surrender in our Heart, where deep knowing and intuition reside. Our Heart knows how to surrender, and when. This Love starts to bloom as a natural response to this incredible relationship with the Unknown. We begin to taste something that far surpasses the experience of awakening, because no matter what- we are inspired to do it again, and again.

I have never felt flat or dried up. I have felt frustrated, scared and confused, but these are the roadblocks that I have learned are the signal to let go. And I always feel Love, no matter what. That is my Way, and it is going way past any knowns.